This speaks HUGE things to my heart.
Forgiveness.
These days I'm finding it hardest to forgive... myself.
For the way I've lived in the past.
For the way I've hurt people in the past.
For some of the choices I've made.
When God reveals the pride you've carried in your heart over the years, the time that usually follows after that revelation is one of self-hatred.
It doesn't have to be like that, but sometimes those are the emotions that are dealt to you and sometimes you learn to take the revelation, be sad that it was you all along, and leave it at the Cross where Jesus asked you for it anyways.
I don't know if that makes sense... but I DO know that if I want a F U T U R E - it requires forgiving myself - recognizing the ugly - resting in that humble state & turning my face to the living God and WELCOMING the full flood of grace that He wants to give me.
In short - and this really is just so short, especially for me *smile* - that's where I'm at.
Learning what it means to LOVE & allowing my heart to receive the grace that for so long I believed I didn't need.... how sad. Thank You Jesus for your love.
"Give thanks to the LORD, for He is good, for His steadfast love endures forever."
~ Ps. 136:1
