:::My Man:::

I'm in love I'm in love and I don't care who knows it!!

Ahhhhh. :)

-Some days, when I really have time to think about it, I can't believe how incredibly blessed I am.

- Then other times, when I'm riding in the front seat of his truck and he randomly takes my hand and smiles at me, I experience first hand little glimpses of why I am so incredibly blessed.

- Then there are the times when he's singing at the top of his lungs to his favorite country song on the radio, or ordering his "#1 no pickles, american cheese, value size with a large sweet tea" through the drive-thru at Chick-fil-a, or those times when I catch him staring at me and when I make eye contact with him, he smiles and says "you are so beautiful. I'm just going to stare at you the rest of the day, ok??"

- The times when I wake up from a nap (and absolutely look like it,) and he smiles as he sees me walking down the stairs and cups my face in his hands and says "Goodmorning gorgeous."

- The time at the Mill, when a guy will come up to him, kind of pulling him to the side, and say "Dude did you see that girl? She's so hot!" and Bill just shakes his head and says, "No, look at Jocelyn." his friend will look at me, and then Bill says (in a voice he doesn't want me to hear, but I do anyways:), "See, here's the difference. Jocelyn looks that gorgeous, all the time. I literally get to wake up to that face, every day, absolutely no makeup is needed to make her look like that."

- Then there's those times when I'm upset about something, hurt, confused, crying, and he pulls me close, kisses my forehead, and promises that he will always take care of me, that everything will be ok.

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I've fallen hopelessly and completely in love with this man. His strengths, his weaknesses, his little quirks, his annoying habits, his hobbies, his passions, his dreams, his heart. Everything about this man has completely captivated me.

I wish there were enough words to express how amazing he is.

Now, as sappy and lovey-dovey as this stuff is, I'm not blind to the difficulties we will face. I know there will be days when the last thing I want to do is be by him. I know there will be days when the last thing he wants to do is see me. But I also know, and pray, that those days will be few and far between, because God's put an overwhelming desire in Bill's heart to have an incredible marriage and I know we will do anything and everything to delight in the Lord and let God give us that desire of his heart..

I've learned so much in these past 21 months of having him in my life. I've learned so much about myself, things I like and things I hate, and I've never had as gracious or loving of a teacher as him.

He's seen me in my absolute best - where I know I am being incredibly sweet, funny, awesome, and happen to look stunningly beautiful....

And he's seen me in my absolute worst - where I know I'm being mean, impatient, hurtful, and happen to look incredibly grungy, ugly, and extremely far from even remotely attractive. Ha. :)

He sees me in every season and still loves me so so well.

+ I'm so grateful that I've found a man that thinks I look drop dead gorgeous in sweatpants, glasses, and over-sized t-shirts.

~ I'm so grateful that I've found a man that loves me so well through my impulsive reactions, those times when I don't necessarily think before I speak and say something that could be so hurtful.

+ I'm so grateful that I've found a man who is open with me, not afraid to show emotions or be vulnerable with me.

~ I'm so grateful that I've found a man who despite the fact that he's be hurt in many ways in his past, has opened up to me and allowed me to love every part of his heart - his strengths and weakness, and I'm so grateful that God's given me a heart to love him as strongly as I do.

+ I'm so grateful that I've found a man who thinks before he speaks, who is patient with me and isn't afraid to be himself in front of me.

~ I'm so grateful that I've found a man who promises to be loyal to me, to protect me and love me forever.

+ I'm so grateful that I've found a man who wrote in his journal the day after our first "date" that he thinks I'm going to marry him... and has remained loyal, steady, and confident in that thought for the past 21 months.

~ I'm so grateful that I've found a man who isn't in a hurry to grow up - not afraid to be silly, but doesn't hesitate to show, when he needs to step up to the plate, a maturity and wisdom that is faaaaar beyond his years. I'm so impressed with that.

+ I'm so grateful that I've found a man who loves me when I don't deserve it... regardless of time or distance apart, he remained faithful and loving and didn't want to let me go.

~ I'm so grateful that this man that I've found, happens to be incredibly drop dead gorgeous person - with eyes like the ocean and a smile that, in the words of the amazing Taylor Swift, "can light up this whole town."I mean, seriously, my man is a stuuuuuud. I'm a lucky lucky girl. *smile*

+ I'm so grateful I've found a man that loves the Jesus, is willing to seek out God's counsel and wisdom in His life, and lives in God's grace as he draws closer to Him.

:)

I'm marrying this man in less than two months, promising forever to him, and I couldn't be more excited or sure of anything in my life.

He's my match in every way and I am so ready to start my life with him.

I love you Bill Stainback!!!!