:::Fire:::

What a weird time of life this is! So much has changed since my last post. We are officially completely out of Texas.... a fact that I'm bittersweet about, much to my surprise.We've seen so much family in the past months it's been an insane blessing. We've upgraded to a nicer home on a bigger base in a state where you're not allowed to pump your own gas. (???) And recently, much to my heartbreak, the state I love is on fire. Literally.

With the huge move and the change of scenery and the millions of boxes to unpack and the meeting&greeting of new friendly neighbors, it's been hard to really sit down and deeply think about stuff. Or be inspired by anything in general.

This current tragedy, however, has really in a way suddenly jolted my heart to a stopping point. Seeing these pictures of the flames & destruction of neighborhoods I have frequented & mountains I've hiked & the city I've loved - all from a distance of hundreds of miles away - makes you feel hopeless and frantic and a whole lot of things that don't really look like trusting Jesus at all.

Though I don't have time to express much - something I'm hoping for maybe later on this month as things settle down - I must say that in the midst of this tragedy which is legitimately terrifying and life-threatening and hopeless, there is hope. I'm reminded of that as I pace around my home with tears streaming down my face, constantly checking my twitter/fb newsfeed for updates and horrifying pictures. It hurts. It's scary. But in the midst of it, I just want to be anchored to what I KNOW which is so much bigger than what I SEE.

I love Chris Tomlin's lyrics as it pertains to this... "when my faith shall be my eyes..." :::
It's so stupidly easy to see the picture right in front of you and forget how big God is.
He saw this fire coming & can probably blow the whole thing out with the wind of one of His blink's... imagine that.

He holds it all together. His big picture is better than my puzzle piece and I'm hoping to remember this BETTER next time a crisis like this or even not like this occurs in my life.

That is all. Hopefully more soon because I do miss sitting and pondering through the etches of a keyboard.