::In every season::

"All of my life,
in every season
You are still God!
I have a reason to sing.
I have a reason to worship!

I will bring praise, I will bring praise!!
No weapon formed against me shall remain!
I will rejoice, I will declare,
God is my victory and He is here."

THESE are the lyrics I've had in my head all day. Since watching my dear friend Jill McCloghry gave her testimony about one of the toughest times in her life, and then watching her STILL record the "Desert Song" on Hillsong United's newest album, I've been humbled and so grateful. Watch this:





Amazing no? It in a sense.... brought me back.

:)

I've been wading in this water of complete complacency lately. Not boredom, necessarily, but not "fired up" either. Just.... blah.
But it's been a GOOD blah in a sense...
(Ok I'm REALLY not starting to make any sense right now... let me try to explain.)

You know that time in your life when you're not really SUPER HUNGRY, but you still love Him and desire Him? You're just, complacent. Not striving, running after Him, seeking Him with your whole heart, but definitely still loving Him and keeping Him in a "close friend" range? (That is, talking to Him every once in a while, remembering Him, and still singing to Him whenever a worship song comes on your ipod.)

That's where I've been with God. Which, honestly, isn't at all where I want to be.
But the thing is that it's hard to REALLY seek after God, still always hungering and striving after Him, when everything in your life is going AMAZING!!

Stuff with family... altho a little tougher in June, has recently been awesome with parents working out a lot of issues. Granted, it's not perfect, (hello it never will be,) but it's definitely been a LOT better. Praise Jesus!

Things with friends has also been a lot better. It's so hard to have people in your life and you care SO much about, feel like you are too busy to give a crap about them. I think that's how my friends have been feeling recently because I really am so busy with work, it's easy to put them on the back-burner. But, that's not at ALL how I want important people in my life to feel. I love these girls, so so much, my friends mean so much to me and are such treasures in my life. I love them SO much and want them to know and feel how much I love them. So... I've been making more of an effort, putting aside more time to be with them and it's been awesome!!

ON TOP of all these amazing things... I've recently started dating this guy. (We'll call him Billy.) :) He's.... *sigh*..... amazing to say the least. He's made me so happy and really blessed my life. He pursued me (relentlessly.... and we all know how I feel about that. *wink*) from the beginning of our relationship, and has really been the leader of it ever since. He is constantly reminding me of how much he cares about me, and always makes me feel special. (SO SO special!) We have the most AMAZING time together, we could be driving in a car, taking a walk, or having a nice 2.5 hour conversation over chick-fil-a and have so much fun together just talking and being sarcastic. We just have fun! He's awesome. He swept me off my feet and I wanna keep him. :)

SO ya. Life's been awesome. I'm so happy. But I'm glad to be back. I have to continually learn to pursue the Lord actively.... whether I'm in a tough, needy point in my life, or on the top of the world!!
He's the most faithful, consistent person in my life.
Through every blessing I've received, He's the only one that stays.
Everything I am, and everything I wanna be, is to and through and for Him alone.
He's my rock.
He's my first love. I always want Him to sit and reign on the throne of my heart... regardless of how many extra people I let into it. :)

I want to constantly yield my life to Him, please Him in EVERYTHING I do, and never let my standard fall away from all He's called me to be.

Yes, I love being at needy points in my life, (to an extent of course.) I love being broken and SO in desperate need of Him. But at the same time... I love being happy!
But the thing is that in the happy times, when so many things are going right and it's easy to, not forget, but kinda put God on the back-burner.... its in THOSE times that I want to seek His face even more diligently.
The highs and lows.... the ups and downs.... the happy and sad.... He's still reigning on the throne forever and I still want Him to be on the throne of my heart forever and ever.

All of my life,
in every season,
You are still God!
I have a reason to sing.
I have a reason to worship!

Needless to say... I'm SO looking forward to worshipping Him at theMill tonight. :)