:::Passions:::

The weather is GORGEOUS outside.
Sunshine:) I love it.
Colorado is the best state... during the summer. (When there is no snow). It's so beautiful and refreshing. You wake up and smell the fresh, mountain air and it's seriously so amazing. I'm so blessed to live here.

Life is awesome right now. I just got a new job that I think I'm really gonna like... I'm excited! My family is doing wonderfully... growing up really fast and it's crazy to watch. Jesus is still very alive (haha... I almost say that as if it's a surprise...) and moving a lot in my heart. My friends are ok... probably the biggest struggle in my life right now. But there are still people in my life... all who happen to be oversees/outside the USA at the moment.... (aka Canada, Norway, Australia, Hawaii...) who are still such dear friends of mine and so close to my heart, supporting me and loving me and I'm so grateful for them!! My boyfriend is nothing short of absolutely amazing and loves me so well, he's incredible. He just found out his job in the Air Force... to be a pilot!! His dream for a long time!! I'm so happy for him and so proud of him!! So life is great there.

I'm recovering rather well from my culture shock stage... getting my feet back on the ground and getting my heart set once again fully on my King. He's so gentle and patient with me though, I'm so so grateful and so undeserving. I went to my mentor's house on Sat. night, and her husband led my boyfriend and I through a Bible study through Romans which was awesome... her husband is an anointed teacher and I'm SO BLESSED to have people like them in my life!! Life is so good!!

To be honest though, my heart is still kinda restless. I was praying today as I drove to work for God to ignite a fire in me again... I want Him to awaken dreams and visions in my heart. I want to be passionate about something. Seeing my boyfriend find out he was going to be a pilot yesterday, a dream of his since he was a boy, was SO awesome to watch... it brought me to tears!! But it also made me realize how I don't really have something like that in my life... like a dream to pursue or something to be passionate about.

I really want that again in my heart. I want a dream, an ambition, a goal to pursue, something to be passionate about. But more than anything I want it to be completely God-given; I want to walk 100% in His will and I want my dreams to line up with His for my life.

So, that's kind of where I'm at right now. Establishing my relationship and pursuit of the Lord on more than just fleeting emotions; praying and trying to find out my hearts greatest desires and dreams.
Yes there are things I love; little goals here and there that I want to achieve in my life. I love to travel. I love to read and write. I love to type... blogs, stories, etc. I love being outside. I love people. I love masses of people gathered together in one place worshipping the Creator of the Universe. I love seeing young people with hearts established and consecrated to the Lord. Ahh.... that, that right there, makes my heart so complete and happy:)
But I'm almost in a sense talking about something tangible; something that can have more immediate results in my life. I'm tired of wasting my time working a job that I'm far from passionate about; I want to find my niche in life and pursue it, and affect people, and cause change. I want to impact people's lives and have dreams that seem impossible...

Someone said something during my time in YWAM. They said, "God is a God of the impossible. If everything you're doing in your life is attainable and very possible to achieve, pray for God to give you dreams that are greater. Dream dreams that seem impossible... because that's the kind of God we serve."

I love that. I want to live a life of faith; solely dependent on the one true living God. So many people assume that narrows my options down to just being a long-term missionary, but I disagree. My mentor's husband that I mentioned earlier, the one who led the Bible study through Romans, is a man who breaks that stereotype 100x over. He's not a long-term missionary; he lives a "regular" life like I do, with a "regular" family of 6, and "regular" job as HR of State Farmers Insurance. BUT. He's different than anyone else because He's led 100% by the Spirit of God. Whether that's decisions he makes in the workplace, or in his family, He's constantly walking in the Spirit and living a life full of divine appointments left and right:) He proves that life as a Christian should NEVER be boring!! Not when you're being led by the Spirit. Coooooooool!

So yeah. Anyways. That's a wrap. There's the blog... written more for me than anything, but I appreciate you being a part of my process as well. This is where I'm at::: Praying for dreams and passions to awaken in my heart... Trusting in the Lord to bring some that will glorify His name above anything else. Resting in that fact... ahh I love the peace that Jesus alone brings. So different and opposite of the world... and so fulfilling as a result. Pray for me too if you think about it:)

Immediate Goals:
- Get lost in a really good book... or rather a couple... read 2 books a month.
- Hit the gym once a day... (get ready for bathing suit season! Ha:)
- Stop eating chocolate... for atleast a month. (ahh... nearly impossible. But as I said before... God is a God of the impossible! He'll give me strength... I hope.)
- Re-read the Gospels. (Excercise for both my body and my heart. SO needed)
- Wake up by 8:30 am every morning.
- Brainstorm more goals.


Oh... P.S....
Happy 10 months my love!!!! :) I love you... <3